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A Glimmer of Light

A Glimmer of Light

ReMoved from HESCHLE on Vimeo.

I am always asked why I have such a heart for children, especially sharing such a deep connection with the little girl or boy who has no voice.

After I watched this poignant video, I kept thinking to myself, “Mom, you never came running for us when my two brothers and I were hiding in the backyard on that very dark night. Would you have given my close-in-age adopted brother and me back if there had been any hope of saving your marriage with our adoptive father, the love of your life?”

In my particular family dynamics, I believe what was missing from any conversation I ever had with my adoptive mother was how she felt about me after never seeing my adoptive father again. Children feel they are to blame. Mom didn’t act as if she wanted or needed us anymore.

Frustratingly, I can’t find anyone to tell me how she felt long before then … if we were always just a heavy burden.

I am for the underdog—the precious child who knows what it feels like to be truly abandoned and discarded as unworthy of being loved. I may have lost out on the love of two mothers and several fathers. I can’t change that fact. However, what makes it not hurt as much now is if I can continue to make a difference in the lives of our future generation of children who feel as I did.

Long before the police took my alcoholic adoptive father away on that very dark night, the system had failed me as a once helpless, vulnerable child. By sharing my past, my story, my history, I want to be a glimmer of light that makes a difference.

Please, I ask that adults not watch this video with the mind-set that you must go out immediately and try to save the world. My heart-felt desire is to see that every child placed in foster care indefinitely is able to experience that wonderful sense of belonging to a “forever family.” The goal is reunification for every child placed in foster care or finding a permanent home if they can’t be returned. I believe parents must be in it for the long haul with the understanding that raising a left-behind child by no means is going to be easy, but is well worth it.

I pray many lonely and confused children can one day say with confidence, “I am lovable. I am worthy of care,” as Zoe reflects in the video, “ReMoved.”

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  • shari says:


  • Lorene Wages Fairchild says:

    This was so powerful! As a former foster parent I saw so many children, mostly girls, who arrived at my front door carrying those brown hefty bags which contained the entire contents of their world. I recall one little girl, not unlike “Zoe”, who had been removed from a home where her father was trafficking illegal guns. His hiding place for the guns was under his four year old daughter’s bed. She was eventually was returned to a family member but I soon had another displaced little girl take her place. If I have one objection to the video, it would be the portrayal of the first foster home. The vast majority of foster parents are good and loving people who simply want to help children in need. The stereotype of the abusive foster parent has been sadly exaggerated. Foster homes are like airplanes…the only kind you hear about are the ones that crash.

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  1. So sad, what a terrible experience. and I know it was only one of many for you. Love you friend!!!
  2. This fills me with sadness: “No child should have to continually try to make a parent love them.” What a tragedy that your mother was not able to accept love from you. My guess is that deep down, she didn’t feel lovable, and she had to cover that shameful fact up with a bunch of br…
  3. It’s insane that these findings were made but nothing was done about it. All these years later, you are still waiting for the wrongs to be righted.
  4. I love you❤
  5. I hope you are able to find more on the first chapters of your life. How twisty things became when people had to hide things…ugh. Sad.